I’m fine, much better than the previous days and not suicidal. My parents have been very concerned and caring as well and we’ve been watching films and stuff. It’s nice.
Still my problem hasn’t gone away and I’m still convinced of all the depressing bullshit in my head and I feel a little trapped. I really wanted to go out to get some fresh air and maybe a cat (MYPARENTSARETHINKINGOFGIVINGMEAKITTENSOICAN’TBESAD) but my dad didn’t feel like it. According to mom he’s in a similar situation but he’s a little worse since he drinks too. Seeing my dad a little down doesn’t help much either.
It’s been harder to approach and talk to anyone today tho. It’s just that I feel like a shitty person for bothering anyone at the moment, especially now that I’m completely this ball of lazy useless. To top it all, more artblock. Drawing has been really unnatural.
Look at this thing
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my team is complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the bug
The bug who has ev'rything?
Look at this 'mon
How many wonders can one pokemon hold?
Lookin' around here you'd think
(Sure) he's got everything
I've got joltiks and spinaraks aplenty
I've got beedrills and ariados galore
(You want more joltiks?
I got twenty)
But who cares?
No big deal